I’ve always been practicing the loss
我一直在练习失去
Single-channel video installation, color, stereo. 2'10''
2023
I am obsessed with the idea of collection, sorting and preserving the debris from (un)loved ones. At one point, I almost self-diagnosed as a hoarder, but it turned out I am just a keen practitioner of morbid dependency, though sometimes felt ashamed about it, secretly.
In 2020, I encountered a castle-shape, pinkish tooth box, and simply teared when seeing that: just the thought that something so perfect can be mass-produced and easily bought, makes me feel that there are still some corners of this world that are still light and effortless enough to bear my collection of debris. Three years later, I started to unpack the narratives around the amber, tooth box, tear vials and specimen, maybe, also my romanticizion of self-harm and the ultimate disassociation: death.